It's really hard to explain how you feel to someone who doesn't share the same passion for the music, for the band - for the individual members and what they are feeling. Endings are so sad; I don't deal with endings and good-byes very well. I usually go into an emotion spin for a while.I know what you mean. I put in a Petra cd and start crying. My wife doesn't understand. She keeps asking what's wrong with me.
That's why we have the Zone - we can all give a mass Pethead hug to each other and cry on each other's shoulders.
On the other hand, I for one have been waiting (in a strange sense) for this day to come. I know in my heart that the Lord has so much more for John to do, but with Petra in place, being the main focus - it was difficult for John to put alot of effort into his own particular ministry. Petra was the main deal, and rightly so.
I also know that when it comes to John, I've been put in his life for a reason. I never asked the Lord to be a promoter, a webmaster or a booking agent - it all came to me, one thing right after another. I didn't pursue any of it, nor did I ask for it. It just happened. And I love doing it.
And now, with Petra ending, it's John's turn to move forward. And I'm feeling a definite responsibility to help in this area, but I'm also feeling very... I don't know what word to use.... unsure... ?
Whether anyone wants to acknowledges it or not, I AM John's booking agent, (along with Huie) and feel a real responsibility to do my best for him. I know I haven't done much of anything this past year because of Petra and their tour.
But now... the field is wide open. It's time for me to get going.... and the responsibility I'm feeling is very strong... and very heavy.
