A Petra Fan in Need
Posted: Sat Dec 31, 2011 3:25 am
I have taken serious thought as to how I should approach my friends with this. This has been heavy on my heart and mind for quite some time. So I felt I should come here to the zone and share just what has been on my mind and heart.
It has been a part of my existence, the very thing that has kept me going for pretty much my entire life. But now I’m tired of it, I want to change it. I want to make sure that everything I do to give up what I have in exchange for what someone else has will be worth it and that I can continue being your friends.
If you don’t want to be my friend after I say what I have to say then that is up to you. I’m willing to still be friends with everyone here despite this thing, and I’ll still be the same ol’ Bakes, you will see I can still be funny and still listen to Petra with everyone else, but it’s just time I have a change. Sometimes people go through these times of life where they just don’t know if they can just keep going with what has been behind the door for so long. So in trying to understand these new feelings I’ve been having, trying to interpret just what they mean, I feel as if apart of me will be going away when I make the change. As a matter of fact I know apart of me will be missing. I know that many of you are devastated at this point that I could even do such a thing.
But the time has come, I’ve been living in secret for to long, I hate the fact that it has taken this long to really say something or even do something, I’m really not a bad person, I love God and I know that He loves me, I just hope my friends can still Love me after this. But I must go ahead with my plans in order to be happy……I have to replace my Toilet, the old one has been pinching the heck out of my cheeks!!!!
It has been a part of my existence, the very thing that has kept me going for pretty much my entire life. But now I’m tired of it, I want to change it. I want to make sure that everything I do to give up what I have in exchange for what someone else has will be worth it and that I can continue being your friends.
If you don’t want to be my friend after I say what I have to say then that is up to you. I’m willing to still be friends with everyone here despite this thing, and I’ll still be the same ol’ Bakes, you will see I can still be funny and still listen to Petra with everyone else, but it’s just time I have a change. Sometimes people go through these times of life where they just don’t know if they can just keep going with what has been behind the door for so long. So in trying to understand these new feelings I’ve been having, trying to interpret just what they mean, I feel as if apart of me will be going away when I make the change. As a matter of fact I know apart of me will be missing. I know that many of you are devastated at this point that I could even do such a thing.
But the time has come, I’ve been living in secret for to long, I hate the fact that it has taken this long to really say something or even do something, I’m really not a bad person, I love God and I know that He loves me, I just hope my friends can still Love me after this. But I must go ahead with my plans in order to be happy……I have to replace my Toilet, the old one has been pinching the heck out of my cheeks!!!!
