Prayer request

[AlwaysJohnLawryFan]

I am feeling sad and crying for no reason. Anything right now could set me into the dpressed mood. I am a depression sufferer and been on meds. I am so tired of going to the doctor about it. I feel like I am all alone and just can't explain it really.

Sort of I can. I have a lot going on in my life right now. My husband has a tumor behind his left eye. He is already through with his radiation treatment. He now has to go to his eye doctor once a month to keep check. Cause the doctor said the tumor would not shrink til 3 months after the radiation treatments. Plus he is waiting to go to the med board to see if they are going to let him stay in the army. He didn't have the tumor before he went to Iraq the first time. When he came back the first time, he found out. But they was not worried about it then cause it was not growing. When he went back to Iraq the second time in 2005, it grew and it was pushing his left eye outward. It was swellin and he looked like someone punched him. So he had to come back in June 2005 and then in Aug. he had a biapsy done. It was not cancerous but he needed radiation treatments. It took awhile for them to set that up. But when he started going , he felt really drained out. He took his anger out on me and the kids. No , he didn't beat us. He just yelled and screamed when we just said hi or didn't speak loud enough.

Note this is not a political topic just a prayer request. Reason I said that is because I don't want nobody thinking i am talking about the war and talk about it... I am not a political person.


If he gets out of the army he said he was going to try to get a medical retirement cause he was in long enough plus disability. But, there are no jobs out there but the city police is already wanting him to come work with them. I guess every job is danerous. I just worry alot about him and if something happens to him. Kids and I will be left alone.


I find myself taking things to personally the past few days.. Please pray for me. If I am not on the board for a few days or more. I probably just don't feel like getting online. It is not you all. It is me.

I am not leaving the board cause i just joined not too long ago and you guys are really nice people so no reason to leave. Just little depressed.

Deb

[PetFCtr]

I am feeling sad and crying for no reason. Anything right now could set me into the dpressed mood. I am a depression sufferer and been on meds. I am so tired of going to the doctor about it. I feel like I am all alone and just can't explain it really.

Sort of I can. I have a lot going on in my life right now. My husband has a tumor behind his left eye. He is already through with his radiation treatment. He now has to go to his eye doctor once a month to keep check. Cause the doctor said the tumor would not shrink til 3 months after the radiation treatments. Plus he is waiting to go to the med board to see if they are going to let him stay in the army. He didn't have the tumor before he went to Iraq the first time. When he came back the first time, he found out. But they was not worried about it then cause it was not growing. When he went back to Iraq the second time in 2005, it grew and it was pushing his left eye outward. It was swellin and he looked like someone punched him. So he had to come back in June 2005 and then in Aug. he had a biapsy done. It was not cancerous but he needed radiation treatments. It took awhile for them to set that up. But when he started going , he felt really drained out. He took his anger out on me and the kids. No , he didn't beat us. He just yelled and screamed when we just said hi or didn't speak loud enough.

Note this is not a political topic just a prayer request. Reason I said that is because I don't want nobody thinking i am talking about the war and talk about it... I am not a political person.


If he gets out of the army he said he was going to try to get a medical retirement cause he was in long enough plus disability. But, there are no jobs out there but the city police is already wanting him to come work with them. I guess every job is danerous. I just worry alot about him and if something happens to him. Kids and I will be left alone.


I find myself taking things to personally the past few days.. Please pray for me. If I am not on the board for a few days or more. I probably just don't feel like getting online. It is not you all. It is me.

I am not leaving the board cause i just joined not too long ago and you guys are really nice people so no reason to leave. Just little depressed.

Deb

Hi debra. I want you to know that you and your whole family are in my prayers. I know whats it like to be depressed I'm being treated for it right now. Please thank your husband for me for serving our country and fighting for my freedom.

[AlwaysJohnLawryFan]

Thanks. I will tell him. Being an army wife is not easy but I hear other people say I am stronger than they are. I don't get it though. I go through stuff and I am just as weak as anyone else. Yeah he been to bosnia and to Iraq twice. They was going to send to him to Korea but somehow they changed everything.

I guess I let everything build up inside me til I get depressed or explode. Sometimes it helps to talk about it then sometimes it is not.

I made alot of sacrifices and stayed faithful. Stayed honest but yet tired . burnt out. No energy.

[crossways]

JLF - you and I have a lot in common. I grew up on a military base. My dad was a chaplain in the navy. He went to the the first Desert Storm with a Marine battallion.

I know things on a base can make you feel isolated. It is so strange living among the civilians, I am always amazed that everyone in my town seems to have known each other for their entire lives. They know everything about each other and are really good to support each other through hard times.

I remember living on base, and during tough times, even your friends..well they just didn't seem close enough to confide in.

My dad had to medically retire also, they caught his prostate cancer too late. He was on some hormone therapy for treatment, but it caused him to really lash out at us as well. It was a very hard time.

I will be praying for you and your family. Just remember that you are not alone. God tells us to bring Him our burdens our pain, and he WILL give us rest! Easy to say, I know. BUt you are a child of God, and He won't forget you.

[AlwaysJohnLawryFan]

Thanks crossways.. I don't live on base anymore cause I felt like I was being shut up in a prison. I didn't want to socialize with the other military wives cause they was doing ungodly things while their husband's was in Iraq. They was cheating and talking about the wives that was faithful behind their backs. They would be two-faced and back stab people in the back on Fort Stewart. Not all military bases are like that. Kinda wish I was back in Aberdeen, Maryland. The base community pulled together and was a family. But, I like the house that we are buying and the neighborhood. It is closer to Wal-Mart cause I don't drive. I am blind in my right eye. Ga it is easier to get a drivers license than my home state of South Carolina. I don't have to have an eye doctors statement. But, my husband is always too busy to take me. Plus he is not feeling well at this moment. He has been asleep since 4:30 pm til now 11:00 am.

He is alive cause I woke him for a few minutes to see if he was alive cause I freaked out for a second. My kids was crying too.


I can walk to Wal-Mart cause is a mile down the road. I am in a good friendly community in Hinesville. Church that I go to now is really helpful to me...

I just don't like livin on Fort Stewart... Pains me to know what is going on , on that base.. Those military wives should be ashamed of themselves. I am not a nosy person but I was one of the faithful wives that they talked about. I forgive them. But, I didn't want to live on that base.

I took a few minutes break while my kids is on recess from home school. I got to get back in five minutes to finish up. Got til 2:35 to teach them for today...

[Shell]

It's normal to have to deal with depression when you're under a lot of stress, and you've had a lot going on. You might want to think about medication again, especially if it helped before. If there is a pastor or someone at your church you could talk to, that might help too. It's normal for your husband to be angry, he's had some pretty serious stuff to deal with too, but he shouldn't be taking it out on you and the kids. He might not hit you physically, but he hits you emotionally with his yelling, and that's not good either.

Whatever the case, I'll pray for you.

[AlwaysJohnLawryFan]

I really appreciate the prayers. I am doing better the last few days. I finally feel like doing something.

[epdc]

debra, honey, you have tons of reasons to be depress. you are going through a lot. don�t feel bad for "feeling depress" sometimes we have our moments when we need to explode so we can take out all the garbage we start to acumulate. just don�t stay on that phase a long time. Sometimes we need that to get strenght ya know.

You are in my prayers. I have been through big problems in my family too and I know how depression is. If you need to cry, cry, if you need to scream, scream. just take it out and give it to God.

Hang in there. I know it doesn�t seem like but this tunnel is only temporaly. You are gonna make it through this. and yes, you are strong, if you were weak you wouldn�t be here ya know. but don�t think you are strong because of you but because God has been there with you.


*HUG* you are in my prayers.

[executioner]

Debra,

We are all part of God's Family here and we will keep you and you family in our prayers. I've said it many times before that this is what Petra and this board is about. I know it is hard when you have so many things going wrong at the same time, but God is there and will comfort you when you need it most. We will Stand In The Gap for you in this time.


"Nothing in the Heavens or Earth can stand against the fervant prayer of a righteous man"

[tinasattler]

I am feeling sad and crying for no reason. Anything right now could set me into the dpressed mood. I am a depression sufferer and been on meds. I am so tired of going to the doctor about it. I feel like I am all alone and just can't explain it really.

Sort of I can. I have a lot going on in my life right now. My husband has a tumor behind his left eye. He is already through with his radiation treatment. He now has to go to his eye doctor once a month to keep check. Cause the doctor said the tumor would not shrink til 3 months after the radiation treatments. Plus he is waiting to go to the med board to see if they are going to let him stay in the army. He didn't have the tumor before he went to Iraq the first time. When he came back the first time, he found out. But they was not worried about it then cause it was not growing. When he went back to Iraq the second time in 2005, it grew and it was pushing his left eye outward. It was swellin and he looked like someone punched him. So he had to come back in June 2005 and then in Aug. he had a biapsy done. It was not cancerous but he needed radiation treatments. It took awhile for them to set that up. But when he started going , he felt really drained out. He took his anger out on me and the kids. No , he didn't beat us. He just yelled and screamed when we just said hi or didn't speak loud enough.

Note this is not a political topic just a prayer request. Reason I said that is because I don't want nobody thinking i am talking about the war and talk about it... I am not a political person.


If he gets out of the army he said he was going to try to get a medical retirement cause he was in long enough plus disability. But, there are no jobs out there but the city police is already wanting him to come work with them. I guess every job is danerous. I just worry alot about him and if something happens to him. Kids and I will be left alone.


I find myself taking things to personally the past few days.. Please pray for me. If I am not on the board for a few days or more. I probably just don't feel like getting online. It is not you all. It is me.

I am not leaving the board cause i just joined not too long ago and you guys are really nice people so no reason to leave. Just little depressed.

Deb

i wil pray sum times thats intersetion the lord lets us feal his ters sum times win a interceser asks the lord to letthem feal what he feals sum times its the lordsspiret crying

[tinasattler]

I am feeling sad and crying for no reason. Anything right now could set me into the dpressed mood. I am a depression sufferer and been on meds. I am so tired of going to the doctor about it. I feel like I am all alone and just can't explain it really.

Sort of I can. I have a lot going on in my life right now. My husband has a tumor behind his left eye. He is already through with his radiation treatment. He now has to go to his eye doctor once a month to keep check. Cause the doctor said the tumor would not shrink til 3 months after the radiation treatments. Plus he is waiting to go to the med board to see if they are going to let him stay in the army. He didn't have the tumor before he went to Iraq the first time. When he came back the first time, he found out. But they was not worried about it then cause it was not growing. When he went back to Iraq the second time in 2005, it grew and it was pushing his left eye outward. It was swellin and he looked like someone punched him. So he had to come back in June 2005 and then in Aug. he had a biapsy done. It was not cancerous but he needed radiation treatments. It took awhile for them to set that up. But when he started going , he felt really drained out. He took his anger out on me and the kids. No , he didn't beat us. He just yelled and screamed when we just said hi or didn't speak loud enough.

Note this is not a political topic just a prayer request. Reason I said that is because I don't want nobody thinking i am talking about the war and talk about it... I am not a political person.


If he gets out of the army he said he was going to try to get a medical retirement cause he was in long enough plus disability. But, there are no jobs out there but the city police is already wanting him to come work with them. I guess every job is danerous. I just worry alot about him and if something happens to him. Kids and I will be left alone.


I find myself taking things to personally the past few days.. Please pray for me. If I am not on the board for a few days or more. I probably just don't feel like getting online. It is not you all. It is me.

I am not leaving the board cause i just joined not too long ago and you guys are really nice people so no reason to leave. Just little depressed.

Deb

my sweet sis deb i wil be praying fore you sum times all we can do is cry espechaley id=f all kinds of things are hapaning sum times that hapens to me to sum times to what i do is put my paraise and worship on ore get bath with lavender bath oil ore drink sum ho tea ore talk to my mom and my step dad i hope one off thos wil help you sis love tina your sis in christ

[AlwaysJohnLawryFan]

Thank you all... Love you too hugs and kisses....

My husband told me yesterday that he went to another doctor and said that his left diaphram is partly paraylized excuse my spelling right now... I think I already said that... I know it seems they keep finding stuff...